-Preparing my heart-

i dont know what will come my way in the future. or what might happen with my life. all i know is that for now, I’m following You and living life by Your laws. Entrusting all that is and is to come and praying that u’ll prepare me spiritually, mentally and emotionally for what’s ahead, and that during this time of preparation, u’ll be with me in spirit and in truth.

i love u 🙂

it was a great day today. uncle thomas is back again hehx, but going back tomorrow. i spent the whole afternoon in sarah’s house with my darlings 🙂 had a good time playing bridge and teasing lynn heehee 😀

i have been a naughty girl 😉

we also watched johnny english [a first for lynn and deb and the dunno how many-th time for sarah and i] laughed and laughed. it was a day of good fellowship and alot of giggling. There was one round i had four aces and lol, still lost by one set. haha. nth to support my aces lehhh.. sigh.

okay im juz a noob at bridge.

we talked alot, made plans for next year. thinking of starting a study group. next year’s going to be hard, juggling debate and studies and church. hmmz. i wanna work extra hard so even if i dont leave sc, i’ll get to stay in the class i’m in or raise.

btw, i’m in courage next year. in other words i raised two classes. my only comfort is that debbie is with me yeah. a few other girls from se came up too, but, well, se’s nothing without all the crazy peeps eh?

lynn’s with danne -.- and sarah’s once again with jeanette.

thank God for debate :)))

i wanna love u more and more each day.

my com’s dwn again yeah, in lennard’s house now. heh. didnt expect to come till like cny haha..

he’s sleeping [yes at this time!!] cuz he’s [as said by his father] nocturnal. leon’s grown and eliza’s as cute as ever. by grown i mean taller than me. sigh, everyone’s taller than meeeeeeee.. 😦 i used to be proud of the fact that despite being a year older, he’s always lagging behind by a few centimetres. not much, but’s it’s still something.

will post my new year resolutions for next year soon! i am deciding whether to change my blogskin. saw isabelle’s one which is very pretty. masquerade – very nice.

but since its taken , i shant covert someone else’s blogskin 😀

at bsf once, they asked us to rate ourselves on the 10 commandments. how many we actually obeyed.

the 10 commandments – Exodus. 20:1-20

I. “You shall have no other gods before me.
II. “You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me, but showing love to a thousand [generations] of those who love me and keep my commandments.
III. “You shall not misuse the name of the LORD your God, for the LORD will not hold anyone guiltless who misuses his name.
IV. “Remember the Sabbath day by keeping it holy. Six days you shall labor and do all your work, but the seventh day is a Sabbath to the LORD your God. On it you shall not do any work, neither you, nor your son or daughter, nor your manservant or maidservant, nor your animals, nor the alien within your gates. For in six days the LORD made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, but he rested on the seventh day. Therefore the LORD blessed the Sabbath day and made it holy.
V. “Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you.
VI. “You shall not murder.
VII. “You shall not commit adultery.
VIII. “You shall not steal.
IX. “You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor.
X. “You shall not covet your neighbor’s house. You shall not covet your neighbor’s wife, or his manservant or maidservant, his ox or donkey, or anything that belongs to your neighbor

on a scale of 10, i tink i gave myself 2. now i still give myself 2, for obeying the 1st commandment and the 8th one. hehx, jia lat rite? there were ppl in my class who gave themselves 7 or 8, but i suspect it is because they dont know the real nature of the sins they commit.

confession – i am coming close to being addicted to the computer. when my com breaks down, i wont noe what to do, i’ll juz sit around or walk aimlessly abt the house. its quite sad. so i dont worship the buddha or anything, but to some point i worship the computer and i have to do something abt that.

3rd commandment? ‘ohmygod’ slips now and then. 😦

there are times i forget the significance of ‘sunday’ or the sabbath. there are times i consider skipping church for other activities that are more ‘appealing’ sigh. and i there are also times i totally disregard the purpose of coming to church and think of missing it for other trivial unimportant reasons. and as much as i might try, i dont really keep the sabbath holy. i have to really work on that.

AHA! honour thy father and mother. i leave my actions to speak for themselves. no comments 😀

there are times when i look upon some pple with hate or habour thoughts of malice. in the ible it says hating ur brother is murder to God because it is commited in the heart or smth. guilty-

adultery 😀 har har har 😀 dunno what to say lehhhhh =X

stealing no. 🙂 phew..

i’ve lied alot of times. often without thinking. hmmz [lenn has awaken. but is reluctant to come out hmmz. ]

coveting. i covert alot sad to say.. i covert handphones, ipods [or mp3s], pple’s dvd collections :D, schoolbags and other material things. occasionally [ VERY occasionally] i covert other pple’s boyfriends 😀 heez.

okay, that’s how naughty i am. 🙂 talk abt the 10 commandments!! i hereaby pass this on to danne, yiying, sarahC, joan, jiawei and clayton. confession time!!

somewhere over the rainbow, way up high….

-Hell has broken loose-

I HAVE BEEN GONE ONLY FOR AWHILE WHAT HAPPENED?!!

it doesnt help that i just typed something and it got deleted..

okay a short explanation as to why i have been missing in action this past fewdays- my com went into one of its temporal crashes. for some unexplainable reason, everytime i move that 6#^@! box, the thing just crashes. so sickening grrr..

anyways, the joy upon discovering that the com is actually working flew out when i read my tagboard. wow my blog is suddenly so viewer friendly eh? -.-

anyways, I was reading a story my sister wrote. It’s kinda boy-crazy. okay it is boycrazy. and i think it’s what my sister thinks about. but i know she is not boy-crazy by nature. it is because she has been polluted by evil beings who disguise themselves as her friends. to pollute her into liking barney, eh no into liking boys. destroying her childlike innocence! okay im writing rubbish.

but she has weird weird friends im serious. they can call her to talk and talk about the guys they like, and most of time, my sister is clueless as to what they are gushing about. which is i must add extremely irritating since it is a very much waste time. furthermore, she has a sister who can put the phone to much better use. 😀

but speaking abt boy-crazy, there was one horrible point in my life when i was boy-crazy. ask yiying 😀 now u noe what we were up to when we were 10 and “young and innocent”. ;)\

I seriously suspect that to this day, there are ppl still afraid of me [us]. That guy attends ym, no points to figuring out who 🙂

heh. that shld keep all of u occupied.

actually what have i been doing the past few days?

eating alot, sleeping alot, reading alot, watching alot of tv? u noe what i sound like?

A PIG! YES! a very cute pig 😀

Aww look at that haha.. so cute 🙂

please dont complicate things, im confused enough as it is.

-A spring in my step-

fabulous

nothing short of fabulous

and no other word would do justice to the happenings of today.
even the teasings were funny. 😀

well, it was a late start to the day as I woke up late [for my standards] at 9.36am due to sleeping late the previous night. Finished watching that show which was getting extremely laggy and irritating. thankfully the ending was… good. sorta. =]

got to church 1/2 and hour late and realised that unlike the day before, lunch wasnt provided. so, had microwave spaghetti from 7eleven which was suprisingly tasty:) I love microwave food.

practice with different changchang people 😀 oyes, the changchang people are the names Dawn gave to the guitarists. today was andrew and issac. andrew the big one yeahh. heez, so fun, more ppl joined us today although others were missing in action.

the white sands act was so much better than on wednesday’s because we had more mikes and stuff. however we had some postioning changes and Dawn had to stand on stage to conduct us BECAUSE Prudential for some profound unfanthomable reason had to set up a booth just at the bottom of the stage. -.-

ohwell. but we had a bigger crowd which was also more enthu 🙂 I guess that made up for it. 😉

we were early at century sq as we were not due to perform at cottage pies today – both at white sands and century sq yeah. so we had free time to go walk around both malls and we all went, with nic. hehe. we tried to convince him to take neoprints with us as Rachel wanted to take again. Jiajun wasnt feeling good as she didnt sleep at all last night so she opted out. Well AT LEAST she had a good reason.

Nic thought a guy taking neoprints is gay. %^#!$% -_-

in the end, we decided to skip that and we went to walk in TM. sigh so sian, my feet were hurting and I was feeling slightly dizzy for some other reasons =D

heh.

time was up and we went back to century sq to our meeting place. we got bored cuz we were the first there and when the others started to arrive, Nic whipped out his guitar and coaxed us into singing along. Actually Jaqui played first [Yes, Lord] and then Nic took over with One way. =] We tried to help the salvation army [we were bored lah] hehe.

Then the sound checks and more walking in and out and in and out. We had a problem though cuz century for yet another UNFANTHOMABLE PROFOUND REASON decided to REMOVE THE STAGE!!! why? so they could do some Osim exhibition. -_-” but regardless, the sound system was good, we had a reasonable space and our performance still attracted a reasonable sized crowd. okay, it attracted a much bigger crowd than Wednesday 🙂 It was great!! we barely made mistakes and familiar faces from the crowd also encouraged us much. =]

IT’S OVER! THE CAROLING AT THE MALLS! time is tick tocking by and christmas is drawing closer. 🙂

Rachel, Felicia, Mathew, Clayton, Nic, Isabelle, Sam and I gathered to have dinner. not before we tooked alot of pictures 🙂 Clayton is a photographer so yeah, pictures were taken with much enthusiasm 🙂

Decided for some reason to go to the more crowded place – TM to have dinner. Mistake. the foodcourt had no space for 8 pple. It was hard finding seats for 2 let alone 8. so we went to long john silvers instead where we found tables for 6.

Because me and Nic had not enough cash , we opted to go to the foodcourt. Had a interesting time yeah, chatting.. blah.

THEN the teasing started…………… sigh

thanks to Nic, said something abt a date -.-

but oh wells, the walk to the interchange was a torture. there Rachel and CLayton were yekking away. ESP clayton. $%#^@ to make matters worse, they heard nic telling me he will take me ‘home’ cuz I was going [I am in] Darren’s house and I didnt noe how to get there from tampines. so he said he would bring me there on 81. that was really nice. but of course u noe, when pple are out to tease u, they show no mercy.

and they didnt show mercy.

took more pictures on the way back. clayton was trying to act gay haha. Me, rachel and Isabelle kept on taking pictures and I think we were a nuiscence in the bus. oh well. 😀 honestly I dont feel sorry =D had too much fun laughing.

Got to my stop and I told Nic I didnt need him to escort me further. after alot of u sures, i got off. crossed the overhead bridge with alot of thoughts in my head. got down then I nearly got a heart attack.

He [Nic] popped up beside me. if ure reading this, DONT EVER DO THAT TO ME AGAIN. =D

so now I’m here, safe and sound. had a great day. 🙂 made new friends, found out so much more abt pple than I thought I would. tired yes, but no regrets 😉

didnt noe that ryan could sing that well. rawk on!

and dawn is the best conductor I’ve ever known.

I love PMC!! =]]] Heart and soul.

Peace-

-Proclaiming the holy birth-

we were up on stage and the light was bright.
A small crowd was forming down below as the people came, curious.
upstairs, others were stopping to look down.
the distant sounds were beginning to fade away.
we were in our correct positionings and the mikes were working
the sound checks were completed.
I smiled at the guitarists and looked to Dawn

we were ready

By the grace of God, everything ran smoothly yesterday. God has been so good!
We came to church early for some lunch and fellowship, changed into our outfits and proceeded for the ‘warmup’ and last minute practice. Thankfully, Dawn decided that the people who were wearing skirts were best positioned in the 2nd row and I along with a few others went to the back. ha! no need to worry about forgetting my lines. 🙂 at least it wouldnt be so obvious i was mouthing ‘watermelon’ rite? =]

we got our sashes [i got green!:)] and the girls ran to put on makeup. heh, some of us were in dire need of assistance and Shane was invited into the girl’s bathroom lol.. the expert 🙂

we all took public transport and practically filled the bus heez. we were quite a sight! girls and guys in white and black with gold red and green sash-ties. =]

my feet were aching by the time we got to white sands, all of our feet were aching. ahem the girls i dunno about the guys. guys will NOT survive a day as girls. heez. 🙂 i said that to felicia who said it to clayton. 🙂

ANYWAYS, we attracted alot of stares that were starting to make me feel uncomfortable 😀 the white sands one was good, although not as good as the one at century sq. the sounds system was as great, thus we couldnt hear the guitarists and therefore we sang off pitch. we had alot of supporters from church though, marcus came, bertrand came to help us take care of our bags. kw came too. yup.

it was great that a significant number of our audiance were lil’ kids in the front row. heehee.. 🙂
one was so facinated by dawn’s sash haha.. 🙂

cottage pies. then a short break which the girls nearly mobbed bertrand to get plasters. haha.. I dunno how many I used. 10? hmmz. ;D

okay century sq was better. the sounds system was better and there was a bigger crowd. we did the sound checks and then we had time of our own. another scramble for plasters and our other personal belongings. then mathew came. haha, bought an expensive wallet for one of the girls in my small grp. 40 bucks!$#

I havent met a guy that age who would buy me something let alone something that expensive. hint hint 🙂

anyways, while the others ran to the arcade, rachel clarice and I gathered felicia, mathew and clayton to go take neoprints lol.. 😀 gir;’s indulgence 🙂

at first I was like wait I dunno clayton, i dont even noe who im taking neoprints with! wait…. haha.
I realised that guys have this habit of looking a girl up and down when introduced. that was wat mr clayton did to me when i was like I’m rachel and he was like okay, ra….chel. i wanted to laugh. 2nd time and still counting!!

the singing at century sq and the cottage pies there was fab. less mistakes and we didnt really sing out of tune. at least not the whole time. there was a bigger crowd and more familiar faces. my mum came yeah. we had more spirit and it was fun!

SASHA came!!! woot! i didnt expect her. she and a friend was toking to daniel when i spotted her and went running 😀 i tink i made all three of them feel embarrassed. =D

i had a great time minus the mistakes minus the lil’ embarrassing moments minus my blistering aching feet and minus missing yiying so much I felt like sulking the whole day.

😀

that’s a lot of minuses. =]]]

anyhow, rested well last night and readied myself for the big day – NARNIA! =]

in the end it was just me and danni, but we had a great time although she thought the movie wasnt that fantastic. ok it was like WOW LOOK AT THAT! but it touched me deep yeah. aiya u who noe me well would noe why – go watch it!

i want a brother remember?:)

this obsession is driving me crazy 😀

aww, he’s out there. [im like talking abt my prince charming haha =] ]
and BTW, boyfriend aka husband is DIFFERENT from brother.

hehe. I’m CRAZY arent I. I know. =]

knowing that school is reopening soon is driving me nuts.

i’ll bet im not alone.

sleigh bells ring, are u listening?

-All the excitement-

tired out by all the thing that have been going on. but I think my time and energy was well spent!!

kudos to the TOFU com it was GREAT!!! =]]

Okay we started out on quite an unoriginal step I must say cuz of all the onecamp stuff in it, however, we had other really good games too! Charlotte’s wed was good and yiying’s grp destroyed it lol.. yiying claimed that she was the one who sat on it. aww, someone’s so heavy =D

my group [eunice’s grp] was severely handicapped cuz well, we had shuiming and shane who were in the tofu com so they would be missing in alot of action. yeah, altho shane did alot to lighten us [esp the new p6s] up. hard to believe im going to be officially sec2 and 14 in a matter of weeks. 😦

heh, then there was that fear factor thing.. tofu milkshake. tasted quite good actually, we picked the combination watermelon, apple and lemon with half a slice of tofu and the tofu actually tasted like soyabean milk. =]

HAUNTED HOUSE wasnt that all scary cuz shane kinda gave himself away. only he wuld be willing to scream liddat lah.. =D

the treasure hunt was a wild goose chase. thankfully yongwei came to help and then lead us to discover that we had already completed the $%@ thing. yeah we were daft enough not to know.

played alot of wacko and polar bear in between and bertrand played that guess the number thing. heh.

ahaha, then we headed to pasir ris park. =]!! we played the ultimate frisbee and got sadly owned by bertrand’s grp who had ryan and himself. -.- haha.. it was lik coated with slime – flour tofu and dunno what oter junk went into the misture. then came captain’s egg! captain’s ball with a raw egg! lol that was good. we had pretty good throwers and catchers in our team. =] then shaun came to help us. lol. he was good lah, but he kept on wanting to score from the other side of the ‘court’.

OH YES, kangwei came back from japan. coughcough. his hair coughcough… =D

and andrew came back from england. sigh………..

we had a fantabulous worship with all the jumping and shouting and praising God. whooo man!!

didnt noe mathew was an acs boy. hmmz. sec2 too hmmz. haha.. juz dun wanna think abt his life there cuz he’s lik kinda on the small side. but he was so high during dinner time haha, gave us all a good laugh. was saying high to everyone. deejayvu?

dunno i’m making this sound boring..

xmas party. highlight, pastor aaron spoke to us abt lik the reason why Jesus came. tokked abt his love life abt like broken relationships and how they lead to sin. how Jesus can come and fill that hole. yeah.

barry came back with a bad hair day, had fun messing up his hair. =] strawberry korkor lol..

ohwell.. guess that’s that huh.. tonight carolling practice. sigh.

-Inferior-

I’ve been gone for 2 weeks and so much has changed.

duuhhh..

The ‘choir’ is fantastic. The girls anyway. The guys are strong, but they have to work on coordination. But fantastic nonetheless, compared to wat they were at the beginning. they- not me.

It feels so cold
Loneliness chills
I’m set apart
Different
Wanting
Embarrassment when my mind
is blank at a verse
I’ve yet to learn
one everyone
already knows
sucks
but i’ll get over it
I always do
on the surface
inside?
God knows
He helps
But I’m not helping
i’ll juz practice
i guess
Enough about that..

the guitarists are good, under Marcus’s drilling. haha.. Aron’s cousin [dunno ur name I apologise], nic, Shuiming and issac i tink yeah. miss yiying. 😦

my skirt was too short. dont laugh danne, it was lik 1mm above my knee?! i guess it’s supposed to be at ur knee. Then Shane came up and taught us how to sway haha.. thought us how to dance =] he was like 1… and 2.. and 3.. and 4….. haha..

then Amy came to tell us about what not to wear underneath [for girls]. like no coloured bras blah then jaqui made some joke abt bras with a MESSAGE. MERRY CHRISTMAS haha..

Had a good talk with Eunice. Thank God 🙂 Nic sorta needed to leave early so obviously my mum couldnt bother him. guess who she called…. -.- Marcus. lol.. he was like ‘ummm… Rachel, ur mum says that she’s going to be late cuz she’s still at home.’ and I was up and ready to leave. I want a handphone………

jk mum.

hear angel voices

-All good things come to an…-

end

The year 2005 is coming to an end. So fast isnt it. Like January was just yesterday.

Christmas is next Sunday. And in abt a week, school would re open and most of us might be living completely different lives, walking down completely diff paths. It’s sad really. I cant imagine feeling the same way I felt when I stepped in to the 1se classroom in the beginning of this year. Of course if I were to be stepping into a class full of familiar faces [aka 1se+Jeanette+all the other debators], it probably would make me nothing short of elated. But that isnt going to happen.

It doesnt help I cant go to the next class party at Elyn’s house cuz of carolling.

At least this year I had Lynn. If I dont end up with her or danne or joan, for the first day at least and maybe the next few weeks, I’d be feeling very lonely.

Well, no time to think abt that. The days till the big reopening are packed full. Like tomolo’s there’s the caroling full-dress and sat’s TOFU. [woot!!] loved last year’s tofu. okay sorta lah, wasnt lik fantastic but im sure this yr’s wld be great. Heard some nasty stuff frm Ber yesterday. 😀

Nxt week’s caroling caroling and caroling again. and NARNIA!!! let’s drag lynn to watch with us and take neoprints!! =]

Put that all aside, I still gotta do all my xmas prezzies. not shop for them mind u, if only it were that easy. I have to make them cut, paste, paint, glue all that.

Hmmz, I tink we’re singing on the Christmas service too. sigh. Doesnt help yiying’s not GOING TO BE THERE. =.= again. =.= !&$^*$

hmmz. yest was super fun. Went for PAF games training =]]]]] We started with a game where u blow a balloon and tie it to ur ankles and try to burst others’ balloons without getting urs burst. haha. last one without a burst balloon wins. at the end, it was Issac, Nat and I who were standing. Guess what our “grand” prize was.

The fabulous Ryan and Ber blended hamburger and coke and made us drink it. Nat was the pro, she finished her cup. Issac drank abit and then choked. me? I took one sip and started coughing and nearly vomitted. hmmz.

then did the theory stuff and then went to have THE FUN. We split up into 2 grps and were supposed come up with a game using a watermelon. We were given other materials like chop sticks and plastic cups.

Damn fun lah. shant bore with the details. for pics, go to Ryan’s flickr account. I was in my deb8 shirt =D http://www.flickr.com/photos/magic-8ball/ or the paf blog http://ympaf.blogspot.com/

anyways………
it was a great day lah, even the scare of me losing my ezlink card didnt spoil it. we oso played a water bomb game haha so fun. =]

I’m running away.

from you

-Summer Serenade-

I hate you, I love you, I cant stop thinking about you…

Heyy.. I home finally, was missing everyone, everything terribly.

It’s my sister’s birthday today 🙂 we went out yeah, to Ikea. No big celebration cuz before we went to NZ we already celebrated it with her friends. I did mention it here rite? It was so hot!!! lol.. I still havent got used to the humidity and high temperatures here yet. NZ was so cold!

Went to Queenstown library [my, I must confess, my 1st trip there] since we were in that area mmhmm. Didnt know it was near Farrer. hmmz.

Car rides in Singapore seem so short after all the travelling in NZ. There was this trip we had to make from Greymouth to Kaikoura which was what, 5 hrs?? A killer I assure you.

Day1:
Ah, the plane ride. I dont think I did much other than eating, sleeping and watching movies. haha. I watched 2 1/2 movies. Little Manhattan, Sky High and half of Batman Begins. Well, I ran out of time yup.

Little Manhattan is such a sweet movie and one which I really enjoyed and found very humourous and entertaining. It’s a love story between two 10 year olds. lol, it was so funny haha. It really gave me an insight to how a guy’s mind works cuz it was depicted from Gabe’s point of view. It was his first love. It was very amusing, I mean he’s 10 and he had the guts to pursue the girl.

In my world, an 18 year old who has a crush on a girl juz watches her from afar, and never gets around to telling her he likes her, let alone ask her out on a date. hmmz. I dunno, I get frustrated with guys. Many, when they somehow have the idea that a girl has a crush on them, they run faster than u can say ‘ummm….’. Yup. It’s weird and terribly annoying cuz most of the time, THE GIRL DOESNT EVEN LIKE THEM. I dunno what scares them. Irritating.

Besides, men, most girls wont have the guts to come out and zhui u one. Guys I’ve talked to say it’s the giggling that scares them off. Sigh. I hope they take into consideration that a friendship is actually at stake. I used to know someone, and he was my friend, I did not like that guy. But somehow cuz I blushed when some of my friends teased me in front of him [C’MON, I WAS BEING TEASED!!], he somehow had this idea that I liked him and boy did he run fast. and I was hurt. oh well.

2nd day:
We checked in to our motel and went to the Antartic Centre. We got our car, a Mazda space wagon which was ugly [grey] and old. but comfy. Okay lahhh… haha. But I had a hard time getting used to NZ’s cold weather. the winds were soo strong and soo cold. It was really hard to believe it was summer. I helped with the cooking and found out about how much I sucked at it. My father can do a better job at slicing potatoes than me.

You kinda get the idea.

I started to get convinced that the only thing I could do was cook canned soup. =[

3rd day:
We left late heading toward Twizel. We were rushing to get there by 2pm cuz we were supposed to do wome 4wd tour up mount cook where there were fields of flowers daisies

Went to take a short trail up mount cook. The views were spectacular, really breathtaking. It was raining and so when the rained stopped, there was like a rainbow in between two mountains. whoa.

I saw stars that night, there were not many, not as much as I expected, but that didnt tarnish it in any way. I nearly cried. Wont say why.

Okay I dun think u would be able to take a day to day description of my trip. u would just die. I almost did during my trip. Die I mean. Cuz I couldnt get used to it and I cant deny that I couldnt wait to come home. The trip was lived one day at a time and we all quickly lost track of days and dates. I watched Pride and Prejudice at Arrowtown [Queenstown] and it was fantastic. I cried. yeah haha. It was so touching and I think Elizabeth was good. Darcy’s chubby though, but kinda adorable. haha. As in baby face adorable.

Went sheep feeding and fed all kinds of animals in the Deer Heights park at Queenstown which was one of the many sites of the LOTR filming. There were signs like this is where Aragorn fought blah blah blah haha.. I was attacked by starving goats. One actually pounced on me hard and it was very painful. Okay it’s just me being weak lah. haha. oh yes also went horse trekking. =]]]

I watched the Barcelona match against another team forgot what. It was so interesting, compared to EPL lol..

Visited wineries. 2 to be exact and tasted so many different kinds of wine. Toured the Kaikoura winery.

The sand flies there are scary man, they’re lik mosquitoes just that their bites are nastier and they’re well… fatter? =D One area – Haast which was on the west coast, man that was @(!%&^, we opened the windows and went to take pictures. We came back and the car was like swarming with blood-thirsty sand flies. Me and Becks spent the rest of the car ride killing sand fly after sandfly. When we werent we were sitting down feeling paranoid and swatting air. it was terrible.

i daydreamed alot and slept alot. Most of the time spent in the car was spent sleeping. like a pig. haha.

The thing abt NZ is that it’s so cold. I dunno whether it’s a normal body reaction or not but I just started peeing more frequently. Very frequently. Like every 2 hrs??

It was scary haha.

We went dolphin watching on board a boat although we didnt go down into the water to swim with them in an up-close encounter. It was cool and the dolphins were so acrobatic. 🙂

My mum got seasick and if u ask me it was the most romantic part of the whole trip. Okay dont get me wrong not saying that her getting seasick was romantic but like my dad was there, holding her. 🙂

I was speechless.

I watched more movies on the plane back and compiled my own playlist onboard. We were upgraded [my dad and I] to business class cuz it was a full flight =D Finished Batman begins and watched the Island. watched half of Charlie and the choc factory [the 2nd time] before I got a headache. So I just settled down to close my eyes and listen to music. Enjoyed alot of Robbie Williams and BSBs. Yeah. Oh i love that song Na Ge Nu Hai Dui Wo Shuo by Huang Yida. I listened to that and tong hua by guang liang and 2 other songs by JayChou and… I cried. I dunno why oso. hmm.

🙂

I loved NZ but I love Sinagpore more I guess even though it’s a concrete jungle.

‘It’s not who you are underneath, it’s what you do that defines you.’ -Batman Begins

-And I dont know what to do…-

I’m leaving tonight.

It’s scary, I’m afraid that when I return, things may change drastically.

My friends will disappear
my house will fly away
No one will remember me
I lose my identity
My memories will be scattered
All that’s left of me
Gone.

Okay that’s really exaggerating.

But when ure me, when u can lose almost everything in a matter of… minutes, u tend to get really paranoid.

Well, I finished planning the itenarary yesterday after a whopping4.5 hrs on the computer. It’s a feat for me kayz, after that, I got up, everything was blurry [I took off my glasses] and I could walk steadily haha.

At least the cramps in my thighs from the jogs with danne are almost all gone. I guess I’m fit enough for NZ. At least I hope I am.

Tomorrow this time, I’ll be in a NZ snow city. Some Antartic centre where we can experiance the antartic. not just the snow, but the winds, and sitting on some buggy thingy. heez… Cant imagine.

I’m feeling a strange sense of lonliness now. Like in NZ I will really have no one to turn to if I get into my “moods” again and some nightmares from the past come back to haunt me.

Hmmz….

There’s this song which never fails to comfort me. God is all we have, God is all we need, and how wonderful! God is always there. If we seek, we will find Him, like He promised. I have everything in Him. I gotta remember that.

Redeemer Saviour Friend

I knew you had me on your mind
When you climbed up on that hill
For you saw me with eternal eyes
While I was yet in sin
Redeemer Savior Friend

Every stripe upon your battered back
Every thorn that pierced your brow
And every nail drove deep through guiltless hands
Said that your love knows no ends
Redeemer Savior Friend

“Redeemer
Redeem my heart again
Savior
Come and shelter me from sin
You’re familiar with my weakness
Devoted to the end
Redeemer Savior Friend

So the grace You’ve poured upon my life
Will return to You in praise
And I’ll gladly lay down all my crowns
For the name by which I was saved
For the name by which I was saved

Hmmz. I will miss everyone here. Terribly. Should I write a will? If i die 😀

For now this is simple.
Letters from the left side of the box – Jeanette
Letters from right side of the box – Danne
My diaries – Mummy [ so she can see my true colours and noe about all my lies. also see my honest views on certain people]
Letters to self, or letters that are yet to be posted – Yiying
Jewellery- Becks [except the ring from Ahyee,bracelets from yiying]
Money [not that I have any] and books- Mummy
Clothes- Becky
Song book- Yiying
Stuff in tin box -Sarah Cheong
Debate stuff [useless lahh]- SC
Ring- SarahK
Markers- Sasha
Bracelets from yiying- wear to be burned.
CDS- Yiying
Soft toys- Lynn
Gwendy :)))- Burned with me
Bags- Becks
Bible- Lynn
Notebooks[sermons and BSF lessons]- Jeanette

Anything else? – cant remember. If there are, the rest are my mum’s.

I want to be wearing a soft blue dress. and NO MAKE UP. Request 1 Corinthians 13:1-7,13 to be read by… erm… Yiying. 🙂

Okayokayokayokayokayokayokay, my will. :))) Oh yes, I want my organs to all be donated.

Okay, will miss all. MUACKS ❤