-CNY-

CNY day 1: All the ‘little ones’ with Ah Ma. My kors look so shuai [although they wear almost the same looking stuff every year] and yang looks so cute haha. I like the sunflower. its real btw:)

the whole familiy

CNy day2: the extended family. I see most of them only once a year.

Went to Auntie Theresa’s house. Haha, that’s Mathew. [ I think he’s too big to be called Mathy anymore:)] so cute in that costume!

Okay this is random 😀

There’s Mark holding Mathew, Melanie Becky and I. [I think Mel is very pretty:)]

This picture is clearer, but Mathew isnt sitting still hmm. haha. 🙂

Cny was fun! First day was lots of food and goodies. We played bridge and taidee at gugu’s house before taking photos. mmhmm. then we went to mama’s house to take more photos:)

2nd day. umm. when to that place in tampines, they always rent a function room there. we hung out, ate, played cards abit. played ban luck haha! Surprisingly I bet the biggest amongst all my cousins – 50c haha! they brought tehir wallets and had 10c 20c with them. I borrowed from mum who’s smallest was 50c hee.

It was wonderful to see Mel and the ever hyper but ever adorable mathew. Mel and I started talking, she just came back from Australia for a holiday from her studies. why is everyone going to Australia?! Talked alot and I was surprised about how much she remembered about me.

Mark came back with his friend and girl friend. We had fun chatting and his friend [Ronald] was good fun. They were both from Barker so he was saying that there was once someone offered to pay a friend $10 if he went into SCGS and walked one round. He did it, haha, he walked halfway before he got chased out by security. lol.

Lynn Debbie Sarah and I have walked many a round inside ACSb looking for ms tan’s staffroom, without being chased out by security. I remember we covered 3 floors the first time and the guys were staring at us. haha.

Had loadsa fun 🙂 Will post more pictures another time.

-Things just happen-

Its been fairly good.

Just that the debate yesterday was terribly disasterous.

I’m serious. that UN thing. I screwed my case haha.. forgot one point. FAIL LAH FAIL…

because of everything that happened, Mrs Tan came to talk to me this morning. said stuff about learning how to control my emotions. well, I rarely break down like that. its been a pretty stressful time.

aiya u might think when isnt rachel stressed? haha.

then i think and think of you and I wonder why I cant be like the way u are. I’ve never seen u exasperated with urself and the way u handle things. Ure always “calm”. u may be frustrated and irritated or angry. but ure NEVER stressed. haha. at least u say so. or maybe u dont noe what is ‘stressed’. anyhows. I aim when I can be liddat 🙂

cant stop thinking and comparing. its terrible. very bad habit. Wrote an essay today, or something like it. Mrs Lee [p.s she is from PMC or was! she was the one that brought Teacher angie whee! haha. Mrs Linda Lee] told us to write about pple who irked us. I wrote about bullies. ALthough I’ve never been bullied, I cant stand pple who picked on pple who are worse off than themselves. [I tink i’ve spoken briefly about this to clayton 🙂 hehe, no offence man.] be it in size or race or other disabilities which they have absolutely no control of.

I watched never been kissed.. and Jocie was bullied by her own brother. goodness. he came up with the name ‘Jocie Grossy’ which the school used against her. terrible. diot. so yes. and i didnt noe how to write about other stuff and portray my thinking adequately with words.

CNY!-
itscomingitscomingitscoming.

yesyesyesyesyes.

we’re going to auntie theresa’s house this year. haha. Mark has a girlfriend called rachel lol. hahahahaha. 🙂 and my mum just keeps teasing me crapp haha.. i used to like the guy. hehe. but that was what 3 years ago? lol.. but he’s something lah. =P

ahem.

rite.

i hope i’ll be allowed to play majong. hee.

hands itchy.

lucky danni get to play every week.

haiz. then comes valentines day. 🙂

i LOVE daisies!! white! HINTHINT heez.

danni darling, can spare me one stalk rite? 🙂

DAISY PARADISE okay im nuts.

hmmz.

lil’ girl in a purple dress

-I AM DEAD-

fusion ’06

fellowship lunch band1

I’ ve got a saviour and He’s living in me! My life is no longer mine, but His.
I’ve resurrected with Him, and as far as I’m concerned, I am dead to the world. so if the world has a problem, it’s not my problem, cuz i am NOT OF THIS WORLD. I am ABOVE, not BENEATH.

People can break relationships, and NOT break my heart.

I will boast of the cross! I AM NOT A DEFEATIST.

praise the Lord.

Fusion was.. wow. ahehe. I went thru quite a major mental breakdown at the beginning. yea, but after giving it all to God when singing ‘Consuming Fire’, I guess God just took it away. yeah. 🙂 How great is our God

We were all so enthu, despite the long day, despite being a lil’ sick [vannessa and mathew] we were all enthu for God. whoa, one whole line of PMC-ers jumping and singing in the front. WHOO~

Am in my cousin’s place now, just had my reunion dinner. this is the part where everyone gathers in front of the TV lol.. ninni is not here today, went for a haircut. lol..

guess wat.. i found out just, that luyang is in AHEMjudoAHEM. 🙂

fellowship lunch was good. well, satisfactory till mr tan told me that i was very fierce while speaking into the mike. -.-

thanks man..

haha. my grp rocks man! WE WON okay rephrase YOU WON THE FOOD COMPETITION!!! WHOO!!
Shane’s grp was very creative lah, i must say. ‘YM’ sandwiches. heez.

okay, i am tired and having a mindblock. supposed to be researching for UN but. very. lethargic. was studying for history juz now. ARGHHHH…

oyes, i havent talked about my mathcrazy teacher yet. Ms D Lau. wa, she’s a good teacher. and math crazy too, can tell she’s got the PASSION. she enjoys teaching haha. ahem!Marcusahem!!!

hehe. Marcus when u become a teacher u shld come and teach in my sch 🙂

okay gtg, another cousin in line for the com.

toodles.

-Hold me now-

in your arms and never let me go…

Got the CD Hope frm Lailing. Yeah, i was supposed to bring the planet shakers for her but i couldnt get it outta the car yeah. sry dear.

This few days have been kinda hectic. As long as I dont get 2-3 hrs free time, i am busy 😀

ahehe.

OM. it’s pretty screwed. we got low marks for our 1st assesment. bad start. very bad. i’m supposed to type it out and send it off later [now]. sigh, i juz got back. I realised quite late [at about 2pm] that I had forgotten to bring my glasses back. shoot…

I had to go back to school to gettit. lol.. back a trip all the way there and back.. so pathetic..

It’s sad that I’m totally dependant on them to be able to see. And I cant wear them all the time cuz then I’d get a terrible headache and my degree will soar. miserable.. 😦

But it wasnt all that bad. I had some time of peace alone. Did nothing much, just thought abt things, did a lil’ freaking out, and just missed missed and missed somemore. I saw some guy from my tuition who’s in cat high. lol.. thank goodness I had The Brethren to distract me 😛

It was a wonderful serendipity when I saw Sam [wong] at school. she was coming to attend our Prefects Investiture. I didnt want to go cuz I had alot of stuff to work on. shant bore with the details. anyhows, it was nice seeing her and it gave me a slight spring in my step on the way to the bus stop and then home.

I also saw this guy with this really nice black t-shirt. it was a Jesus is… t-shirt. I wasnt wearing my glasses so I couldnt really see what else was on the back before he put on his backpack. U notice lil’ things like these when ure walking alone. 🙂

I went shopping with my mum and dad last night for CNY clothing. My dad took so long in G2000… lol, worse than women my mum commented. hehe.. 🙂 Well, I ended up buying a dress from Dano.

A dress.

Can you believe it??? I cant. it’s been years since I last wore one…

It’s purple and looks quite retro and is very pretty. Mummy persuaded me to buy it 😀

I really dont noe wat’s with me and purple these days 🙂 I cant say I like the colour, but I seem to really like seeing myself in purple. oh well 🙂

It’s Joani’s birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!! Hope u like the prezzie [altho u already said you did :)]

Danne was so sweet.. 😀 hehe, I wanna be ur bestfriend too haha! I want that picture thingy tooooo……. =]]]

heh.

btw I want you to come to fusion with me tomorrow. Lailing said she cant make it. sighhh. please try to make it? 🙂

Okay then, I gotta go. alot to do 🙂

-Eternal Snow-

Everytime I listen to that song, I feel like crying. Can you believe it? Maybe it’s because I watched the show. I just have to watch it again.

It’s so sweet. oh well. will ask jeanette whether i can like burn it for myself. 😀

Listened to My Only One by Yellow Card just now…

I dont see how we can pull it off. Really.Its hard. Danni keeps on saying that Charmaine can do it. but can WE?

We took about 2 days to settle That thing you Do and the guitarists had to practice together for 2 weeks [about] everyday to perfect the melodies. now we have 2 melodies and 1 bass. plus a drummer who is taking lessons which havent started. [i’m not drumming le]

erm.. yeah. plus singers who dont have fantastic voices. and i cant sing and you want me to sing lead with Charmaine?! that song?!

yes we do have more time this time around. but we dont have everyday to practice. only maybe 5 practices together?? we cant like borrow shufen’s cousin’s drumset again can we?! just so… overboard.

I really dont know. I really think we should polish and improve That thing you do and use that, or do an easy song. i dunno.

i dunno why im saying this cuz i most likely am going to have to pull out either way.

i’m feeling very down. doesnt help that im listening to Photograph by Nickelback now lol..
Goodbye..

Have THW sanction Iran tomorrow. My mum’s coming back tonight. Have piano in about 15mins.
History homework. Went to buy cloth from arab street just now with lynn. omgdness, EXPENSIVE MAN…. omgdnes…… and we are not given money to do it crapp. if we dont get to acsi at least, i will cry. really.

fellowship lunch… and fusion coming up. hehe, remember i made my blog on the night i came back from lst year’s fusion:)

yup. I wish that i dont get so stressed this easily. but oh well, that’s me i guess. I think i know someone who’s proud that she never gets stressed out. jeesh…

aiya… better start researching 🙂

it gets better

-Lazing off-

I’m feeling bad 😀

Here I am in the computer lab, enjoying aircons and surfing the internet while others are mugging in class. hmmz. =]

had english compre test today. surprisingly, there were few questions. but it didnt help much, wasted alot of time trying to collate my ideas to put my 1st answer together. it’s hard not doing comprehension primary school style when all u need to do is copy everything down. right now, i’m not sure whether to include details or to just summarise the whole answer.

i might lose marks either ways. argh, problem problem.

perhaps its just my lousy english. =[

completed the survey from Pastor Aaron. Why am i under listB? hmmz. hehe 🙂

I’m reasonably pleased with myself as i am about to finish reading Mansfield Park by Jane Auston. I watched the movie which is quite different from the book, but equally delightful i must say, but at this point in the book i must comment on the character Edmund.

I CANT STAND HIM!!! how do u fall in love with a Mary when u’ve got a Fanny?? hehe 😀 Henry crawford too. and i think that Maria Bertram is a a stupid goose. how can bitterness force u in to ‘self-revenge’ which drives u to marry a nitwit?? Edmund is insensitive. Henry is a hopeless flirt who pays no attention to a woman’s feelings.

So frustrating. and the worst part. when i carry this book around, my friends question me, pple stare at me. JUST BECAUSE THEY CANT SEE THE TITLE…..

oh man. okay just bear in mind that Jane Auston DOES NOT write sick books.

and neither do i read sick books.

the cover depicts edmund and fanny about to kiss 🙂

sighsigh. nvm.

recess approachs. lalalala.lalalalala. lalalalalala.

i want to know You
i want to hear Your voice
i want to know You more…

-Connor Fitzgerald-

he’s a character in the Jeffrey Archer book The eleventh commandment.

really envy the man. he’s the most respected man in his line, almost everyone of the cia pple would defend him, he has a friend who would sacrifice his life for him [who eventually did] and he has a wife who loves him enough to not question his every move and keep silent for 28 years.

where would u find a friend like that?

where would you find a wife like that??

where would u find a man like that???

in storybooks

ahehe.

that was random. just thinking about that book. i cant find anymore of jeff archer’s books ANYWHERE. crap. but at least i got that John Grisham book that I wanted. yup.

Tuition yesterday was fun. we had a mini debate about something that happened to a girl. you noe the one who was locked up for 17 days and abused in inconceivable ways by her ‘friends’ and their boyfriends. they did and made her do the most disgusting things. terrible.

when asked how we thought about the whle thing, there was this $#% guy sitting behind me [HAHA fiona!] who said that he didnt feel much and that he was not surprised. ?!

this article kinda shocked the whole singapore and he said that it was nothing out of the ordinary and he thought that makeing such a gigantic hullabaloo about was very much redundant. stupid idiot.

-.-…

haiz. our class moved to some ulu room on the 5th floor with a tiny classroom. for seemingly no apparent reason. aiya..

church! well. we got the ALDERSGATE HALL! HALLELUJAH! no more trying to squeeze a cow into a chicken coop. ehhh.. u get my point 🙂

but then it kinda lost that ‘cosy’ feeling’. well life’s never a win-win situation eh?

i thought Amy’s sermon was very good. got to me yeah. For better or for Worse, very true indeed. that day i was telling Lynn [for the 3rd time i think] about God. but i spent quite a while telling her the whole story of Jesus. not in detail yeah, but as much as i could remember. =D

I wont reveal anything personal but she’s always wanted to live for herself. so i referred to the Purpose driven life book thing that i am reading now. [i missed quite a few days:(] i told her that living for oneself just doesnt give life any meaning. for example, say one day, uve got a big house, luxury modeled car, successful career. then ure going to sit down and ponder. now what?? then u go get urself a spouse, have a few kids, then u ponder now what?!

that’s why many successful business men who have ‘everything’ kill themselves for no reason. what’s life worth? why am i on earth? what am i doing here?!??

lynn, u may take a few days, a few weeks, a few months or perhaps a few years, but remember God is waiting and we’re all praying earnestly for u.

oh yes, and if u want the answers to the above questions, go purchase the book 🙂

fellowship meeting was okay lahh.. hehe. i left early frm usher’s cuz i needed to go library to pick me up some books for OM 🙂 yesyes, abit late.

I AIM TO FINISH THE SCRIP TODAY DANNE!! my scene at least. so much to do so much to do but all i’m doing is blogging 😀 ahehe..

i love my blog music. try to change every week 🙂

yes fiona, i did say that budden, i realised that it isnt an uploader 🙂 Heeeeeeheeeee 😀

debate tomorrow.. still trying to think why we should prosecute those men who go to batam to have sex with underaged prostitutes.. i did consult my mum on this matter before she left for Philipines, but she didnt say anything helpful. she said that it’s wrong think of family and stuff and that the singapore should jail them and castrate them haha.

i cant just IMAGINE the look on jon’s face. that stupid look.

another week of school. dun like school.

nothing much to look forward to. just so dreadfully routined u noe?

someday we’ll know..
someday i’ll know.

❤

-Many Miscalculations-

Hihi, i’m back yesyes…

Recovery is fun:) and heartening and encouraging. I havent been so crazy or abnormally crazy wateva anymore and I think it’s great!

debate. Jon came back and gave us an ‘informal session’. before debate, he commented on being overwhelmed by so many sc girls around him. so i said, so how should we feel around cat high guys?

erm… privilledged?
[danne & I] COUGHCOUGH
haha
[me]i think u mean nauseated 😀
HAHA HAHA! 😀

no offence cat high guys, that one was to Jon in particular. 🙂

yes. hehe.. actually I was attempting a revamp in my blog just now butta… erm.. it kinda backfired and the skin kinda collapsed on me so I gave up and decided to be content with the one I have now.

It’s been busybusybusy, yeah, alot of stuff going on. alot of projects yup. OM and stuffs… but it’s going well I suppose. SarahC brought something up today. there’s this band competition organised by ACSi and they want to take part. just for fun.

like the 1se band u noe.. But..

I CANT PLAY THE DRUMS CANT u GET THAT INTO UR HEADS?! WAT IF I RUIN AND SPOIL THE WHOLE PERFORMANCE?!

FYI, tHE ONLY THING I NOE HOW TO PLAY IS THE BASIC-BASIC AND THAT PARTICULAR BEAT… ARGH…

i dont think i have the time to go for professional training. and if it’s on a week to week basis, i wont learn ANYTHING in time for that competition. and i dont wanna do it the fast way either like go learn from my church pple… issac sheldon or pple like that..

hehe.. i have inferiority complexes:D danni u noe, how i felt before that session with Amos? i was so afraid he would end up shouting at me in exasperation:D

aheh..

yesterday was the audtions for the sec1s! wow, we had so many pple come and there was TALENT! whoo! okay at least compared to the past years it was much better, not that there were no talent before. C’MON, ure READING THE BLOG OF A PRODIGY MAN!

okay i’m joking =]]]

we had fun motions set for them like

should scgs go co-ed?
is neopets a waste of time?
SHOULD WE BAN MAPLE?? – but they didnt use that :((

heez.. i just love debate.

Lis came back that day[wednesday]! wonderful to see her again! but then it reminds us of what we have lost.sigh. but she had nothing but good things to say about vj haha. but then she said that nj has 2 WEEKS OF ORIENTATION. !%*(@??? we only had 2 days of orientation last year.. like wth..

but she the programme is really good. 🙂

AND THE FELLOWSHIP LUNCH COMING UP! heh heh heh 😀
u’ll find outt! love being in fellowship.

but then again, i wanna like get into vj, move back to the east:) and i dont even need to go to orchard cuz tampines mall has EVERYTHING heh! then i can learn the drums and join One Voice! cuz i can afford to go down to church every saturday. as it is i cant cuz transport is too time consuming. arghh.

and then i can also join small grp ministry when i am of age 🙂 so much benefits:)

I live for moments like these 🙂 at sarah’s house.

And i miss moments like these. but can we do it again?

my mum left for davau today. I was like crying last night sigh. I always cry before she leaves on a trip. Cuz i always feel like empty. kong kong de. can just imagine kids whose parents leave on a regular basis.maybe they’ve become numb to that feeling cuz they’re so used to it. or perhaps it’s just non-existant because they’re not used to having their mums/dads tucking them into bed everynight and praying to them. and of course the hug everynight to send u safetly off to dream land.

priceless.

cant wait for YM this sunday. last week’s attendance was like 174? so many more pple came back, like daniel and other pple.it’s so encouraging.

God is good!

live for Him

-Laadeedaa-

i have alot of things to say.

but suddenly i’m lost for words.

oh well.

things like that happen once in awhile…

shall go play abit of gunbound to get lamed up and try again at the Merchant of Venice.

smilesmilesmile:)

-Stay Anonymous-

harlow.

since u wont let me reply, i will write my reply here since i have some things to say. And it’s beneficial to the both of us because 1stly, i get to voice my thoughts abt this, and 2ndly, u can choose whether to read it or not.

as the saying goes hitting two birds with one stone. 🙂

anyways. i totally dont see why you sent that email, cuz u are already out of my life, so u actually didnt need to send that email because either ways, i have nothing to do with ur life as u have nothing to do with mine. of course i hear ur name once or twice budden i just shrug stuff off as i expect u do too. no strings attached 🙂

i never had the intention to call u anyway. yeah, as i expect u dread hearing my voice as much as i dread hearing what u have to say. and at the end of the day, both of us are going to feel extremely exasperated with each other so i decided to just mian le if u noe what i mean.

hehe, i j find it hard to lieve that u dont even are in contact with ur own feelings. u dont even know what u feel, or rather u cant differentiate what’s true and what’s not. i hope that u learn soon or else u just might end up hurting more pple and hurting urself.

hehe, im talking crap lah since u say u dont wanna hear how i feel about it anyway. i shall just cut it short.

u were great fun. and i dont regret being ur friend cuz u taught me alot. including how to read [roughly, not as pro as u] other pple’s voices which i am kinda getting the hang of. 🙂 of course i dont have the natural talent so to speak, but then i dont lack instinct.

sincerely,
me

p.s : about the burning, umm, i dont think i wanna waste the fuel and stuff and pollute the air. burning isnt environmental friendly. so i’ll jus skip that and dump the lot if i feel like it. sounds okay to u right?

i am getting breathless