Chopin Nocturne in C Sharp Minor

i think i don’t love my dad enough. not enough to show it.

i was surfing through the results of ‘imun@ac’  on google (mine’s the second on the list of search results) and i realised, mine was probably the most selfish, self-centered blog post of them all. NUMBERONE;indecipherable allusions NUMBERTWO; one picture, and personal note NUMBERTHREE; no details whatsoever. NUMBERFOUR; emo mood.

i am disgusted at myself.

sometimes i wonder about why i don’t blog about things that matter. i know people who post about politics, post articles, post essays, good poetry, and commentaries on the latest electrical appliances. i post about crap.

maybe its because i don’t think about things that matter.

like this post is another self-centered post. rachel, your life screams ME.

Joann knows more about current affairs than me. i don’t even read the newspaper. rawr.

IMUN@AC

i have alot of things to say about IMUN. but i shan’t say it here. When i get my scrapbook/photoalbum, i’ll pour my heart like ink on scrap paper and scream at you like i’ve never done before, except you don’t get to hear any of it.

there were good things too- making friends, going crazy, and being stunningly inappropriate because i walked away with some undeserved glory as well. completely undeserved. ah well. i hope i made good friends-otherwise, i wasted a full 3 days of my time listening to redundant arguments, and fiery speeches. i hope that the brave and forceful words are spoken by people who have the same courage to affect change in the future. what’s it all for otherwise?

Hi elaine! (: Thanks for all the support and encouragement. you’ve been a blessing!

HEY YOU OTHER IMUN PEOPLE. TAKE CARE AND GOD BLESS! (:

The Survey from the Yings.

a) People who have been tagged must write their answers in their blogs
Replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
b) Tag some people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they are tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

SIGH.

#1: If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Mope. Not think about it, and watch alot of tv/ read alot of books. > < I handle my grief badly.

#2: What kind of people you dislike?
The insensitive, unappreciative sort?

#3: What will your dream wedding be like?
I will get a daisy bouquet!! That’s all that I can imagine at the moment. (I haven’t seen any nice weddings to form a basis for a dream wedding)

#4: Are you hungry?
No. If  i eat anymore, I will barf thai food.

#5: What’s your ideal lover like?
He loves God more than he loves me, and loves me more than he loves anybody else. (: Big hands. 😀 Sensitive. Committed. Enchanting. (:

#6: Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
The former is the model answer.

#7: How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
As long as I love that person.

#8: If the person you secretly like (if there isn’t one, just imagine) is already attached, what would you do?
Mope. (See above) Then move on.

#9: Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Oh ho ho ho. Yes.

#10: Is there anything that has made you happy these days?
Yes. Netball. Narnia (: Family.

#11: How do you see yourself in ten years time?
Husband, kid, house with hammock and alot of books.

#12: Who are currently the most important people to you?
The Family, the Bestfriend, the Goodfriend who is away at camp, Kids at school, Worm, Netballers (no team, no netball)

#13: What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Enchanting.

#14: Would you rather be single and rich, or married but poor?
Married to who?! with how many kids? how poor? ENGAGED AND RICH!

#15: What’s the first thing you do every morning?
Pee.

#16: Would you give it all in a relationship?
nonononononono. -.- ya.

#17: If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
Neither; chances are that are I love neither.

#18: Would you rather be friend with a geek who is a really nice guy or a super hot dude who really isn’t that nice to you (treats you badly as a friend etc) ?
GEEK.

#19: What are your friends usually like?
Good listeners (: Faithful, fun loving, kind and TOLERANT 😀

#20: What would you do if you had one day left in the world?
I should start planning 😀

People to tag:
1) Danitza.
2) Vanessa
3) Leslie
4) Davinia
5) errr. WHO READS MY BLOG AGAIN?

Mark 1:14-15 (New King James Version)

Now after John was put in prison, Jesus came to Galilee, preaching the gospel of the kingdom of God, and saying, “The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God is at hand. Repent, and believe in the gospel.”

(emphasis mine)

I have been listening to Paul Washer’s sermons. The ‘shocking one’ and the ‘dating one’ on danni’s blog. (do you know that my mum calls you danni? hahaha) Everybody should watch the ‘shocking one’ to examine yourselves to see whether you are in the faith (2 Cor 13:5).

I was afraid. I was afraid because I had missed the obviousness of the truth. How many times have I flipped to that page of my bible with the passage about the Narrow Gate, and the Fruit, and the Wise and Foolish men who built their houses on the rock and on the sand? (I turn to that page alot. I have no idea why)

ah well.

Matthew 7:21-23 (NIV)

“Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?’ Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!’

i’m thinking….

that i want to cook! (: like gosh, i just wanna plan meals, and chop up ingredients..!! WASH DISHES!! EAT MY FOOD!!<3

problem with taking up a new hobby is, that you never know when to start. You have to bug yourself. I always had my mummy to bug me, I always bug other people. But its so difficult to bug myself. Gee. Haahaa! Let’s see. I’m always fantasizing about making dessert like honey dew sago, the sago dessert with brown sugar? CAKE?? muffinsmuffins!!

Thai food? Ohman, american hamburgers, and my auntie’s own clam chowder! (which is very expensive seeing how one can of clams are 8 bucks in the supermarket now). KOREAN FOOD. kimchi is driving me nuts! I never thought i’d love the taste of kimchi by itself- I can just scoop a spoonfull and eat it with rice! Like seriously. I can drink kimchi soup, eat kimchi omelette, have it fried in fried rice? But NOTHING is like eating it on its own (: My dad has a wonderful colleague who’s korean, and she makes fabulicious kimchi. *drools*

I wanna learn how to make korean kimchi from cabbage-vinegar scratch!! (:

The wonderful sourish brown salad sauce they serve at NewYork New York? I wanna make my own dips too! I fantasize about organising my own cocktail parties. If I really am, (after doing it for awhile, and I discover along the way that I’m) passionate for this cooking thingy, and I happen to be good at it, (and don’t cause people to die of food poisoning or disgust) CAN YOU IMAGINE MAKING A LIVING OUT OF THIS? (:

I’m thinking about money and worrying about money all the time now this must so so stop. Haha.

But then being rich just… You know people entertain thoughts about having a carefree lifestyle, without having to work or worry about anything. Tea with their friends at high end restaurants or cafes, endless browsing in boutiques, setting up a cake shop and not bothering whether you earn money or not. Manicuring your nails, keeping fit at the gym, dancing for fun. boring.

I think that being normal gives you freedom status and wealth takes away. I like my mum. She doesn’t care two hoots about what people think about her. She sets her own expectations, not living in a cave of course, but decides what she believes in, and she sticks to it. She buys what she wants to buy, wears what she wants to wear, and doesn’t care about the latest fashion. She sets trends on her own. See, I like that. When you enter the ‘rich circle’ there is constant pressure, or rather, I think I would be subjected to pressure about dressing presentable (standards of presentable would probably change every week), updating the wardrobe following the latest trends, or at least, wearing something that resembles it; I don’t know, what else is there?

Being normal is being free. Hahaha. Maybe I’m naive, maybe I don’t know that much yet. I don’t know. I like the image of a 4 room flat. Homey. Peach walls and wooden flooring. A nice sofa in the living room with a printed scarf on it to add colour. One painting, and many pictures. A DVD collection in one corner, and a shelf full of books on the other.

I read this book – bamboo and lace by lori wick, I’ve read it 2 or 3 times, I don’t remember- and I actually want to buy it. I’m definitely heading down to SKS this week. I have so many christian fiction novels I want to buy! In the book, there’s this big family that owns a resort in hawaii! (: Its so homely. 3 families sharing the house I think. Brothers and sisters. The children play, they have bible study, they go surfing! They have this resort pool- during the off peak season, because water is a very important thing in the lives of this family, they have this schedule chart, where the married couples can spend time in private bonding, and catching up in the pool. They just need to book a slot. How organised. HAHA! (:

I’m going all over place. What I’m thinking remember? (:

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