-THW hold companies financially responsible for the volume they pollute-

That was the “practice motion” for the debate today.

I had such a great team! haha. Compared to Danne’s and Sasha’s who apparently stoned their way through the prep time, my team was responsive and were ready to contribute. 🙂 haha. There was Zhengkai from Dunman High, Esti(if that’s how you spell it) from Cedar, Melissa from MGS, and Samuel from Xinmin!

Samuel is from my BSF class. He was late I think so he was walking outside. When we saw each other, he broke into an amused smile and I smiled back. He proceeded to walk off. Then he walked back and came into our room and i was like 0.0! haha. Its nice to have a familiar face. I never knew he was in debate.

I thought you were in soccer!

No! I hate soccer.

hate soccer?! o.0 erm. you’re the first guy I’ve met to hates soccer.

haha.


Prep was good. We were against team 2 (we were team ‘1’). Okay lah. The debate was okay lah. 😀

Anyway. We are against Cat high again. ahh. haha.

Hmm. Saw some other people, then after the long training thingy, we went to j8 to stone at macs and talk and laugh about the debate thing.

15th May. – Sasha’s birthday, Prelim rounds for Y14s.

Action packed. 🙂

-unsure-

of wat to say at this moment.

except that God was wonderful today. Perfect sermon, and tuition left me smiling from ear to ear. My teacher(s) love me! haha. 😀

but then.

-Words are…-

inadequate

It was a day of smiles fun and laughter, however I wish I could say that it was all the day included. But there was also disappointment, anger, resentment, defeat, tears and confusion. Why did we lose? Why didnt we break? Why why why????

We were against Cat High as prop and I spoke. This debate was fine. I mean, at least it was fair, the judge pointed out things that were nearly relevent, and at least we could see why we lost. As Shirin likes to put it, we didnt hit back all the ping pong balls they hit to our court. Its a weird metaphor I know haha. Balls. haha. Suzy said that the bigger ones are more important, but they are also harder to hit back.

😀

Okay, that left me speechless. But God filled me with calmness of the Spirit, on the floor as well as off it. Composure, an accepting spirit, and I am very thankful. But then again there was also resentment and disappointment. I went up there having no idea how to start off and what to say. flustered? Hmm.

I gave a lack lustre speech.

Okay enough about me. Aletheia set us off to a good start and Cat high never really rebutted her point, and Suzy was great. She salvaged alot.

THEN CAME THE SAJC DEBATE. = =”

I shant rant. I did maintain composure, but I did curse. Blah. At first I thought that the adjudicator had a pleasant countenance. I should get my hands on the video of the debate (sajc filmed it) and upload it here and let you all decide the verdict.

But then again, who am I to judge the debate from my perspective? I’m not qualified. Nevermind that it isnt a policy debate and we arent supposed to debate on the grounds on what the prop wants (and disinclude the 3rd world nations) which is just unreasonable because emissions trading is international and they cannot just say that they want to not include the 3rd world devaloping nations. That’s just using Suzy’s words utter nonsense.

The motion’s This House Supports the trading of Pollution Permits within and between countries, btw. If you don’t get a single word, its okay. I took about a week to get the motion, and even then I did not have a clear understanding of it.

The last debate made us very happy. (Although I feel bad for Nanyang). The motion was rather slanted, and I felt that it wasnt their fault that their case was flawed. Then again, we put up a good performance! (: Suzy went up there and wham!! haha. Danne was practically staring down at the judge and Jon said that he was very freaked out haha. That’s why he didnt track lol.

But like jon said, it wasnt a glorious win.

We didnt break. oh well.

So after the whole thing, we went to the canteen (i think) or is it the study area? to get a proper debrief. I wasnt really paying attention (i was listening, but when i don’t look at you, no matter how hard I listen, only 75% of the info goes in haha) because I was looking at some pple playing soccer on the field. (I could only see the goal keeper haha!) and he wasnt some hunk, even if he was, I couldnt see cuz my glasses werent on. But I felt more comfortable looking away from Jon and Shirin.

Watched abit of some s-league match last night. home vs tampines I think. So boring!! haha. 😀 Sorry, I’m saying bad things about “my team” cuz I live in bishan. but still. 😀 Maybe its just because I don’t appreciate the game. But I’d gladly sit and watch a real madrid/barce/man u game anytime. (:

then it was off to swensons with a mad car ride. Jaz and Dan came to watch us but Jaz left for church and Dan came back after her ice skating. So the 6 of us (the team + Dan) squeezed into the back seat ( I was sitting on danni’s lap). Haha. I was gripping the back of Jon’s seat because I was afraid I would inflict grievious bodily harm on danne haha :D. I dunno what happened, then I felt my fingers catch hold of some hair. Then I was thinking oh shit then Jon moved forward and he was like ARRGGHHHHH!!!! WHO PULLED MY HAIR?!?!?!?!!!!??

haha. 😀

Swensons. Hmm. the apple crumble smelt delectable. I must try it sometime. Daddy would love it. (:

Then it was another nightmare to the mrt station. then everything cooled down for awhile before jon nearly killed us haha. Its amazing how many times a man can use the F-word in the car, and he was screaming the f-word at some cyclists. haha.

Hm. Now I’m home.

God blessed us greatly, it was a good learning experiance, and we did not screw up completely. We had a great adjudicator for the last debate. not because we won but because he was friendly and he cared. And he complimented both teams and pointed ot our flaws to us nicely. He also made me feel so good cuz he said it was a debate with a rather high standerd. He said something around are you girls sec3? sec4?

we said no sec3s and sec2s. sec2s? who are the sec2s? Me and danne raised our hands and he was like wow! sec2! not bad! not bad at all! something like that. (:


We’re coming back next year, to sweep u all off your feet!

But like Jon said, a good team is one who leaves no question, whether the judges are biased or not, they leave no question who wins or something. Cant really remember.

I love Shirin! She was there throughout and she always believed in us. (:

God I believe in You. (:

-I can’t smile without you-

Those were taken after the extremely filling meal the eve of my birthday (: Hur hur, we were just making poses in front of the camera. hee hee, those were the few not so embarrassing ones. haha!

Its the BCs tomorrow. Why am I so apprehensive? Sigh. I hope… I hope… I don’t know what to hope for. Of course a break would be marvelous, but yeah, I can’t hope for that. I can only hope that we all perform to the best of our ability and leave the rest to God. Lis will be there! (but what if we’re against VJ???) ahaha!

References references. Saw Teo Teo today, man’s been a long time since I talked to him. I remember we used to email and I’d try to talk him into going to church. It’ll be good if I could talk him into it, it’ll be killing two birds with one stone cuz he has a fiancee/wife (unsure if they’re married yet) who is (like him) irregular. That was the word he chose: ‘irregular’.

Sigh.

I miss his lessons. Very badly. We could eat. 😦

haha.

I like my new skin. It doesnt blow me away though, but its nice. (: Better than the purple one. You shouldve seen the look on my sister’s face when I showed her the skin. haha!

You promised. Then again, can I trust you to keep your promises?

Reality says one thing, my heart says another.

-finally-

the new blogskin.

finally!!! 🙂

But I will change it soon. I don’t really like it, but its purple and its a lil’ nicer than the other one. But its so restrictive, but well, I’m a desperate girl.

you’re in me. I cant escape.

inspiration: Jeanette’s funky designs.

I know my cursive sucks. 😀

-Fairy Dust-

I’m in the mood for poetry.

Actually I was intending of typing out one of the beautiful poems by Yeats, but then today I spent my recess with Lynn and helped her with her lit research in her poetry presentation on Sylvia Plath.

Look what I found. I shall ask her how her presentation went. She presentated this poem (: So obedient.

Prologue to Spring – Sylvia Plath

The winter landscape hangs in balance now,
Transfixed by glare of blue from gorgon’s eye;
The skaters freese within a stone tableau.

Air alters into glass and the whole sky
Grows brittle as a tilted china bowl;
Hill and valley stiffen row on row.

Each fallen leaf is trapped by spell of steel,
Crimped like fern in the quartz atmosphere;
Repose of scultpure holds the country still.

What coutermagic can undo the snare
Which has stopped the season in its tracks
And suspended all that might occur?

Locked in crystal caskets are the lakes,
Yet as we wonder what can come of ice
Green-singing birds explore from all the rocks.


I had to read it three times. So its okay if you don’t get it. You can ask me to explain if you really don’t understand and want to. haha. 😀

Since I’m in the midst of prepping the very interesting, but confusing and nerve wrecking 0carbon city debate motion, this was relevent. It was very thought provoking. Coming up with points for a debate, researching, and expending the points is completely different from actually thinking about the motion. I think’s the first time this is happening to me.

Not the whole pollution permits rubbish but the whole environment problem issue. God’s creation, God’s beautiful creation. Last Sunday Amy was telling me – quite briefly about her trip to the states, and the beautiful sceneries. Although she did not offer a very vivid description, I was already getting images in my mind, and although they weren’t very clear, they made me feel the same fuzzy feeling when I looked down from that cliff in NZ.

The day has been a pretty tough one. Reason unknown. I just came to school feeling pretty whoosey. (if that’s how u spell it and if that’s the appropriate word). I got agitated easily. Ask them. I gave Nat a killer stare after she went to flip my ponytail upwards. That was an okay response consideration the amt of irritation I was feeling then. Luckily she didnt hit my forehead, I wouldve shouted at her. Then again, I hate it when anyone does that to me. Discovered my dislike for teases like that when I became acquainted with the hair monster Davinia Daniel.

Actually, debate lightened everything up. Especially Suzy and Shirin’s exchange. About Jon. and as you should know, anything about Jon is interesting.


suzy: you’ve been pretty productive today.

hey that sounded wrong!

Shirin: I hate Jon!

me: rofl
– you see, Jon didnt come because of work.-

You don’t get it??

Read it again.

Still don’t get it?

yawn.

Davinia told me I look like a chipmunk today. A chipmunk.

Poor me.

😀

no offence.

-It’s You-

you oh Lord made the sunshine, the moonlight and the night sky

would you believe me if I said, that nothing is ever impossible with God?

Empty handed but alive in Your hands

Stir it up in our hearts a passion for Your name

You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same

The world will never take You away

Tomorrow, 2006 years ago, you took the weight of the world on Your shoulders.

Hold me now, in Your arms and never let me go.

Living for You
Breathing for You
Working for You
Suffering for You
Persevering for You
Patience for You
Loving for You
Trying for You
Smiling for You
Walking with You
Learning about You
Rising with You
Hoping in You
Looking to You
Talking to You
Obeying You
Feeling You
Knowing You
Loving You

My life – a living sacrifice
It’s You
It’s all about You

Will I dance for You Jesus?

-I can only imagine-

I can only imagine 

I can only imagine what it will be like
When I walk by your side
I can only imagine what my eyes will see
When your face is before me
I can only imagine
I can only imagine

Surrounded by your glory
What will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you Jesus?
Or in awe of you be still?
Will I stand in your presence?
Or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing Halelluja?
Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine
I can only imagine

I can only imagine when that day comes
And I find myself standing in the Son
I can only imagine when all I will do
Is forever, forever worship you
I can only imagine
I can only imagine

Surrounded by your glory
What will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you Jesus?
Or in awe of you be still?
Will I stand in your presence?
Or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing Halelluja?
Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine, yeah
I can only imagine
I can only imagine, yeah, yeah, yeah

Surrounded by your glory
What will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you Jesus?
Or in awe of you be still?
Will I stand in your presence?
Or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing Halelluja?
Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine, yeah

I can only imagine, yeah, yeah
I can only imagine, Yeah
I can only imagine
I can only imagine, Ohh yeah
I can only imagine

I can only imagine when all I will do
is forever, forever worship you
I can only imagine


I decided last night that I was going to heaven, I don't know why, but if I end up there, God will fulfill
His purpose for me there. Meanwhile... I have a purpose here too. Sigh.

I wrote a letter to Yiying today! haha! I think its one of my 1st letters to her, and I've finally gone
back to writing letters! 🙂 Let's see. (refers to letter) what happened today?

Oh I got back two testpprs today. The math ppr we did yesterday. Yes I know, Lau's crazy. Crazily
fast!I got 21/30 for math. Am pretty disappointed. I lost 2 #@$%! marks due to carelessness lah! =(

Then after that, Lau went to tell us about the deception of statistics and that pple tend to
manipulate it to their advantage. Such as you can draw the graph in such a way that the
improvement of whatever not seems more than it actually is. I dunno how to put it lah. But Lau's
really math crazy, and whenever she talks about the subject, she totally lightens up!

Then last night she dreamt about graphs. haha!

I got 21 for geog too. blah.

The Bate. I barely understand my side of my motion, argh! headache. And shirin didnt send the stuff
to me!!!!! WL!!!

BSF tonight. Whenever I look at you. I think of somebody else. it hurts. but you have no idea.

drums and electric guitars`-

-Really Madam…-

They’re all the same, you should know. So there’s no reason to get so upset. They’re all will fear at one point of another and you saw it coming. You asked for it. You have no one to blame but yourself.

My mum has informed me that the NJip open house is on the 22^nd of April. Wow, clashes directly with the British Council debates.

I don’t know whether that means that I can’t sign up, but either ways, I sort of couldn’t care less. I’m sorry, but I’m not keen on getting in at all at this point. I need references to sign up for the ip programme. I came up with this during science and Chinese class today =P

Ms Wee (2006 Literature) *Lit Rep 2006*

Mrs Linda Lee (Literature 2005, English 2006)

Mr Ang (2005 History)

Teo Teo (2005 Geog)

Mrs Bowness (2006 History) – Does she even know I exist??

Mrs Chan (2006 Geog)

Ms Soh (2005 Higher Chinese) *HCL Rep 2005*

Can you see any hints of math and science in there? No! Exactly. ==”

So How in the world am I going to get any ip school interested? But then maybe, I can get Mrs Tan (debate), plus all my coaches (who btw, are all from vjc lol!) and maybe I might be able to catch vjip’s attention.

But really, I couldn’t care less. I just wanna do well, I don’t really care which school I will be receiving the education. SCGS is fine.

I borrowed a book of poems by Yeats. Beautiful. Iwill post one here one day.

Enough said about my boring life 😀 I’m here because I dno’t feel like eating.

Get a grip girl.