Friday: Girls Day OUT!
Muahaha. After doing IMAG, Joann and I left the polar bear on the train and went to bugis to meet sheila and XY. Van turned up later =)
=) they had some 3 buck ice creams on sale. Expensive, but good. Chocolate with BANANA =)
Sy Rogers, one of the most engaging speakers i have encountered so far. and all the sex. haha. too much of it, but he tackled many pertinent issues and shared his testimony.
I learnt that in this world, we all are hungry for love. And some people’d rather get bad love than none at all, you know, hence all the trouble. ah well.
I loved the second workshop: shine for Christ.
it was so relevent. i shall go revisit my notes later. =)
I was very touched yesterday when my grandparents and my aunts were so thoughtful about my trip. i didnt think it would mean much to them, until they gave me money, well wishes, told me to be safe. That’s when i started getting quite emo.
i’m learning how to love you better.
“half my mind is me going to miss you”
the last time i went to new zealand, i made a will. hahahaha. but i shant torment myself about the prospect of me dying hahaha. Although i want to look pretty in my coffin. Nice white dress in a bed of white daisies ( the real ones) and my pillow with me.
=D
woaini ❤
romeo:
See, how she leans her cheek upon her hand!
O, that I were a glove upon that hand,
That I might touch that cheek!
Oh i’m a hopeless sucker for romance. ahahaa.
i shall go watch mansfield park
and hear edmund say: ‘There are as many forms of love, as there are moments in time’
i shall go watch pride and prejudice (the one with the cute sheepdog Darcy who is not colin firth haha) and hear him say: ‘surely you know, it was all for you’.
yo humans.
i’m supposed to be packing my room, but i havent started
and i’m listening to a playlist of 44 songs
i had maggie mee for breakfast {curry flavour i’m killing myself >< }
i’m missing my green pillow
there’s no aircon. should i switch on? (:
and i don’t want you to leave me. but that’s out of my hands now.
i’m not going to know you anymore. argh.
jealousy.
May 19, 2007
like me
like junk
black and charred
totally unlike the
strawberry dreams
I have
but what’s this to compare
its junk
he falls down and mutilates himself.
really?
no, not really.
like blood
saline stench
by salted fish
laid dry on the bench
we lay
stained permanent the memories of us
entwined
I’ll kill him tonight.
really?
no, not really.
like masquerade
colour and song
totally turned on
by something other than me
white gloved
hands tempt and tease
insistent
I’ll blind him so he can’t see.
really?
no, not really.
like me
dark dictate desperate
a scene off a horror
film, pandora’s evil, free
sticky like
mud murky mud
say hi to me
I’ll take him tonight
he can’t see
no he’s mine tonight
he can’t breathe
please
he can’t take
it
I’ll swallow his desires
till he’s
empty.
like me.
3 words:
sleep
obsessive
headache
3 problems:
lack of sleep
prospect your demise
my obsession with keeping close what does not belong to me
3 goals:
sleep before 12
finish math well
finish IM well
3 things i hope won’t happen before then:
i die
i lose all my friends
i fall sick
rachel you’re a retard! whoo~
nat has a beautiful instrumental collection, especially her christian instrumentals.
i was sprawled on the couch, listening to her music, loudly to drown out the drones of the piano near by. i’m going deaf at the rate i’m going. ahahaha. but who cares. everyone’s going deaf.
but you can hear the words on my mouth before i speak
but you can hear and track the flow of my emotions
you can hear what i can’t hear
and that makes all the difference in the world.
see, this is why i’m never going to be ready for any form of relational bgr commitment anytime soon.
simply because the one (the ONE) will not be coming anytime soon.
i can feel it.
everything else before that will just be me playing mindless games – which is really cruel i know, but i can’t really help it.
but i don’t ever mean to hurt you. i’m sorry if i have.
she sits by the stream
spring jumps twirls and dances
the leaves the gentle breeze
ah. haiku. (:
no thankyou, no heartstrings.
May 11, 2007
oh gosh what a horrible horrible feeling.
the things you don’t understand.
the things i don’t understand is, my heart. and the stupid stupid things i do.
that don’t tally. with what? with how i feel, how i know what i should be doing, you know all the things that keep you rational.
what’s annoying is that i can never decipher my own language. i react in stupid ways. God, i’m so lost.
lostlostlostlost. this is a messmessmessmess.
its all your fault
its all my fault
tomorrow i’ll feel fine.
perhaps.
my mum just left for japan so i’m feeling lonely now.
talk about dependancy.
someone just broke my baby’s heart so my outlook upon like is rather distorted now.
talk about i told you so, but i’ll never let you go.
i think i have loads of work to complete so i’m worried now
talk about stupidhead start on your work now, but no… i’m blogging.
if loving you with all my heart’s a crime
i’m guilty.