sweet15

Phantom of the Opera.

Tempting me with Mrs Fields. ><

The view from where we were seated. The chandelier! (:

31.03.07

don’t you love those moments when all you can do is smile

cuz sweet sensations are penetrating every fibre of your body and it just bubbles up to the brim of your throat and bursts forth

your eyes shine, your lips tremble

if someone were to squeeze you, they’d be able to absorb the silvery fluttery feeling

thanks to everyone who made my day, especially the precious letters

and the priceless email_ (:

❤

spasms.

i’d like to say that i predicted this, but that’d be a half truth.

I’ve been waking up with a sore throat everyday for the past 2 weeks and ignoring that symptom because it wears off after some time.

I was coughing like a dog for most of yesterday, and sneezing like a cow. odd enough comparisons, i know.

i can’t find my glasses and its not in school. >may cause drowsiness” that is a SEVERE understatement. i can’t think straight, can’t walk straight, having muscle spasms, cannot feel my head, blurry vision.

i woke up at 6 something this morning, my body clock. haha. the slept till 9. then took medicine after breakfast and slept again. -.-

i feel so piggy-ish. and i HAVE to start on my work.

i’m afraid i can’t find my glasses and be a blind mouse tonight at the Esplanade. Ah well. Yiying can be my eyes.

i’m not sad, i can’t feel my head. i don’t feel miserable, i don’t even know what i’m feeling. i just know that all i can think about is review week and the fact that i havent really started…

and that i’m missing VJ sports day. which, i’m confident, is supposed to be the best i’ve ever experienced if i were there.

and seeing that i can’t exactly think straight, you have to forgive me for the nonexistent organization in this post.

to math. and whatever else that entails.

i will testify to love.

A picture speaks a THOUSAND WORDS.

And i got TWO (:

i can’t be bothered to photoshop enhance the image. (:

another angle. (:

thankyouthankyouthankyou dearie. (:

ARTS DAY

I remember the last time i did clay modeling – the pig turned BLUE. -_- then it broke. I think my sitting partner broke it. haha. So. ENCORE baby!

BEFORE!

AFTER!

hehehe (:

Nice right right righttt? But the handle looks awful lol.

well. i need to mug, really. i’ve been slacking and its really bad. Math on the first day!!! =(
how nice, birthday before review week. ><

Beep by Pussycat dolls is nice =D

Meta

i wish i knew myself well enough to know how to describe, define and delineate what i feel, how i’m feeling it, and how it manifests it whatever i do.

as it is, i walk around a little confused,

a little lost

a little empty

because while i think i am void of pain and real feeling

perhaps i am in denial, or that i simply don’t know.

as it is, my subtleties are killing me.

i’ll let my eyes do the talking

otherwise, i may be cheating myself, i may be lying, some people say i’m masking. whatever.

i don’t know what “being myself” is sometimes. all i know is that i think i’m hurting me, and you. tragic.

7 things on my mind right now.

1. Review week.
2. Homework.
3. How badly I am doing in school
4. My Team.
5. Edmond told me SCGS broke 3rd
6. 07V12
7. Math

我知道我是偷了你的笑容。好在我们的疏远，对双方的利大于弊。
对不起。你要原谅我。我不是故意要伤害你
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
And I’ve hurt myself by hurting you.

Gibberish;

Outsider’s Insider Opinion

1. Hot seat in Parkway Food court.

I had one of the best bean curd i have ever had in my life. oddly enough, from a store that sells laksa and mee rebus. An odd combination, but the laksa was good and the bean curd fantastic (: Kudos to Kenrick for the recommendation. LOL.

Then koped fel’s tang yuan which was SO NICE. And i had no appetite before that. Ah well.

They asked me questions, laughed/0.0-ed at my answers. Fel so big reaction somemore. Wah. A bad place to have hot seat cuz what’s said’s not supposed to go out, yet we’re in an OPEN environment with PEOPLE around. wow.

but i feel loved. and that’s enough. (:

2. Review week.

which is in 2 weeks time. havent started studying.

i miss the weekly tests in scgs. i actually miss them. i am mad. but at least i know i was learning things.

my greatest fear: MATH =( and everything else.

hahaha.

3. THW ban cars from entering the central areas of major cities

acsi vs vip AT acs barker.

what ever will be will be.

4. Pep Talk

From all the debate seniors about my issues. How does one know how to deal? Pray? God will make a way?

I need outsider’s insider opinions. Things that actually relate. People who actually care. And you do. So thank you.

How to deal?

4

Rachel.
40 months; its gonna be over in 4. (ahh! they don’t have hot pink here! -.-)

drugs – 你是让我心疼的可爱女人
it better be over in 4

i hate headaches. really i do. i should bring a jacket to school but I KEEP FORGETTING. -.-

wahh. FREEZING in my corner. if only green pillows could become jackets too. i wouldn’t mind.

i’m going to let go slowly. so that when things cease to exist as they are, it won’t hurt like its hurting now. friggin headaches.

Headache

you expressed it perfectly.

i never was good at being straight with you. Nor with anybody.

Suffer in silence. yahoo.

Contradictory feelings

one Year six Months
Yellowcard

Sew this up with threads of reason and regret
So I will not forget. I will not forget
How this felt one year six months ago
I know I cannot forget. I cannot forget

I’m falling into memories of you, and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you

I can tell that you don’t know me anymore
It’s easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we’ll forget, I hope we don’t forget

I’m falling into memories of you, and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you

So many nights, legs tangled tight
Wrap me up in a dream with you
Close up these eyes, try not to cry
All that I’ve got to pull me through is memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you

I’m falling into memories of you ,and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that we can share
Falling into memories of you, and things we used to do

“So I will not forget. I will not forget”

you know, when you’re caught in a web of sticky chocolate intoxicating love, and you cannot see beyond your infatuation, your world’s like this sweet tangled mess. and you’re addicted.

there’s this great distance between you and reality, you bend and break all the rules. you give in to senseless moments of temptation. you sink deeper into the fondue.

then it ends.

then you’re so unwilling to leave. you cry.

you cry alone.

you cry together over the phone. making stupid promises about not forgetting, about this about that.

then you start to forget.

oh how liberated i feel.

then you start sinking into more tangled messes.

life. haha. so its life.

soccamp

Parliamentary debates! The government pushes for the motion of legalising incest. (3454tfgdkjdkjdf hahahaha) Bryan Chan, Andre Kua, Reema and myself are the backbenchers. I.e, we support the motion but oppose the method. what’s at stake: anything we want for dinner. we agreed on barcadi breezers.

you know. when you’re stuck with a coupla horny notorious cat high boys with a motion like that and we are supposed to come up with creative ways to implement the policy, you get things like : make them have sex with doctor’s supervision or have public castration if they break the law.

Haha, or only homosexual incest. no heterosexual. hahaha. breaking all the rules at once. =D

We earned our breezers. but we didnt get it.

oh well. haha.

There’s kenrick speaking for the government pushing for LEGALISING INCEST. hahaha. They have to register at the ROM and they will be responsible for taking stringent measures to check on the possibility of genetic diseases. hahaha.

oh. try and ignore andre’s face. =D

Oh and that’s the pool room. they taught me how to put my hand on the table. that complicated gesture. haha.

ah yes. then was the negotiation exercise.

we were somehow, by FATE (God) stuck in the same team again! lol. and we were terrorists.
damn funny i tell you. we got 77 hours to get out of the country by helicopter, by the government. hahaha. we were like, we can WALK home! ahahaha.

and we were supposed to get 6 of the political prisoners out and we got 4.5 out in the end. Zhihui (government) conceded half of kenneth kang. the upper half. they keep his lower half in their maximum security prison.

-.- so lame. LOL

Shida Felrin.

anyway.

i’m tempted to post the video i took of the “new debate cheer” that Imran so heartily condemns. we went to a “food centre” to eat and they were like screaming the cheer and the rest of us were like “we don’t know you.” hahahahaha. XD

Anyway. JGS next friday.

THW ban private cars from entering the central areas of major cites

ACSi vs Victoria Junior College

This is going to be fun. 😦

Oxymoronic expressions yours truly.

4 blister disasters on right foot = limping.

4+1 (by stupid nike shoes) = 5 on right foot.

4+1+1(on left foot) = 6 blisters on two feet.

i can’t get over it. i still can’t get over it. i can’t walk properly. i can’t get over it.

=D

should play more often.

Brraannngggg

Soccer and captain’s ball on a basketball court + barefoot = blisters.

scared they get infected.

the last time i played soccer was last year during PE where we Debbie did her hat trick. (: so cool lah.

I miss scgs PE. Softball, touch rugby (WE WON), volleyball. the likes.

i’m supposed to either be doing my IH or sleeping. And i’m doing neither.

Sleep. Yes. Sleep.