-"Wait"-

I’m blogging on firefox at home!!! haha.

I was able to go for the last lesson of tuition at jiang on saturday (to my great relief) because I could skip BCs. Still dunno what happened there, but the world school’s team shouldve beaten VJC. (:

Went to the club and played badminton for awhile, and some other people arrived. Watched some boys play and man they were good! My sister was telling me that when she went to badminton halls, and watch the boys from secondary school play, she said they were better than those “noobs” I was watching. Then I started thinking – I must have no right to even hold a badminton racket. Sigh how demoralising. hahaha. (:

Slept pretty late, so on Sunday morning i felt terrible. Honestly. I havent exercised for so long so my back muscles were aching and I had a headache due to insufficient rest and I could not concentrate properly.

Hold me close to your heart.

I love Clay Aiken. Even though him being gay might be a definite possibilty. 😀

Anyway. Then spent the afternoon at yiying’s house. 🙂 haha. Cooked meatballs and sauce (the ones from IKEA) and boiled pasta sauce to eat with fettucini (if that’s how you spell it.)

Then we ate pasta while watching Phantom of the Opera. Wonderful music although I don’t appreciate opera much. I remember cringing at the beginning when the supposed leading singer was rehearsing her solo part. Oh man. haha. 😀

Hmm. Took a bus home. Slept cuz i was so so tired.

Monday. Computer problems. A very nice computer repairman came at such short notice to fix the computer. Reformatted everything, reinstalled everything. I love my new computer. (: My sister enjoyed herself pretty much anyway cuz the guy was so fun and funny. haha!

😛

Anyway. Yesterday the problems resurfaced again. So I had to spend an hour trying to restore the internet connection. He helped me again. Thanks again.

I feel so sian blogging. But I should update once in awhile eh? haha.

I have to go fetch my sister from school later, and return my report book.

I got shortlisted for VJC and the other day NJC called asking how much I got for my PSLE. HAHA. you know why? Cuz my mother put 150. – -“

Sigh.

I got 100 marks more.

Nuff’ Said.

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-Empty Handed-

-Flying-

Flying without Wings – Westlife

[Shane:]
Everybody’s looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You’ll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be

Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lover’s eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you’ve found that special thing
You’re flying without wings

[Mark:]
Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You’ll find it in the words of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry

You’ll find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You’ve found that special thing
You’re flying without wings

So, impossible as they may seem
You’ve got to fight for every dream
Cos who’s to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete

[Shane:]
Well, for me it’s waking up beside you
To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
In any given time or place

[Mark:]
It’s little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it’s like flying without wings
Cos you’re my special thing
I’m flying without wings

[Shane:]
And you’re the place my life begins
And you’ll be where it ends

[Mark:]
I’m flying without wings
And that’s the joy you bring
I’m flying without wings

-Melt-

PTD this morning. Disappointing results. I could have done SO MUCH better.

‘weak foundation in math’ -Lau

Oh well. I have a month to work, and a month to memorise chem and bio all over again.

BAHH.

Anyway. On a lighter note, I went for lunch with Lynn after that. Man I missed her! We went to Serene Centre, and had a bite at : … hmm, was it Black Canyon? Well, it was next to Island Cremery. 😀 The point was to eat something random, then go and have ice cream. But the food was surprisingly good, for what we paid anyway. 🙂 and for how long we waited for the food. lol.

Student’s meal at $5.50 and we got spaghetti with a sweet basic tomato sauce (very good) and a piece of chicken cutlet. Drink (coke) and a scoop of coffee ice cream which was good. haha.

Had a good talk, catching up basically.

Then I tried persuading her to watch XMEN3 with 1se2005

I tried. and failed. haha.

Then came home. Hmm. Changed. and rushed to PS.

wow rachel, you actually look nice! –danne

Thanks ar girl. haha!

The movie was good. Could be better. But it was good. (: I want wings like ‘Angel’ haha! When he came on, Danne was just gushing about his abs. haha! I was like shuddap Danne!!! haha. Thank goodness I’m not like her. If anything, I wanted his wings. That’s about it. heh.

Then Danne and Sasha engaged in a meaningless arguement about who was hotter and who was cooler, ice man or fire boy. AHAH!

😀

Oh well. Then lishen came and I just melted. Little boys. haha, I have a weakness for babies. When I’m on the MRT, they’re my eye candy. 🙂

=P

Then it was talking and laughing with Sasha as we walked to the MRT, doing a funny indian accent. okay Funny yes, but I’m not sure whether its Indian. 😀

heh.

Take me away with you.

-Nigger-

I am the nigger.
Singer of songs,
Dancer
Softer than fluff of cotton
Harder than dark earth
Roads beaten in the sun
By the bare feet of slaves
Foam of teeth breaking crash of laughter
Red love of the blood of woman,
White love of the tumbling pickaninnies
Lazy love of the banjo thrum
Sweated and driven for the harvest-wage,
Loud laugher with hands like hams,
Fists toughened on the handles,
Smiling the slumber dreams of old jungles,
Crazy as the sun and dew and dripping, heaving life of the jungle,
Brooding and muttering with memories of shackles:
I am the nigger.
Look at me.
I am the nigger.

Carl Sandburg


Thought provoking, especially after Of Mice and Men.

-Hums-

the early rise and the fact that I did not get to rest for more than 2hrs in between has left me exhausted.

thank goodness I did not go to the club, I had a chance to catch a 30min nap just now. mind you, it was not intentional. lol.

you ask why I trust you so.

I can only say, you’re the only one that I have to trust.

-Petals-

Kranji War Memorial. Beautiful place.

I don’t know how to rotate Sarah’s picture there. ahah.

We’re still a team aren’t we?

It sucks when all your emotions are stuck inside. You rot away.

Don’t learn from me.

-Bittersweet-

God is good.

Wow. Yesterday was a roller coaster ride of emotions. The school day flew by quickly and left me rather dizzy actually.

The girls came over to stone an hour or so away. Then we went to eat at j8 – KFC and we spotted some other debaters around. Hmm. Got us quite uneasy, me especially and after lunch, I felt nauseous. Can you imagine a purple eggplant feeling purple? Cant? Good.

(:

PE sold roses (YES DANNE YES!) and all of us had roses with us (except leanne I think because she went home) and when Suzy and Aletheia came with MORE flowers, we looked so… loved. (: hur hur. Thanks for the flowers again!!!

I was tempted to leave my roses at home, but Danne said that I should bring the one that Jon “bought” us, at least. hehe.

The debates were.. umm. They were great I guess! The debate against Cat high, we won although I screwed up the reply thinking it was 4mins. = =” yes I know. Dumb. Danne got BEST SPEAKER for that one though!! GO GIRL!

The one against Cedar. I have nothing much to say. I am in no position to judge them, but I know I was rude, and overly aggressive and… loud. I think I freaked the girl out (the one whose poi I accepted). 😀 but Sasha got BEST SPEAKER! whoo! A great birthday prezzie for you? haha. Happy birthday darling!

Anyway. It wasnt supposed to end that way. We were supposed to go high, we were supposed to be ecstatic, we were supposed to screaming in joy and looking crazy. But that just didnt happen, in fact i felt terrible after that.

I am a weird girl I know.

but sometimes you just cant smile.

Well I’m glad Danne understands. (:

I want a better view.

I want to be on the other side.

-Life-

I don’t have the words to begin this post. There is too much on my mind. Like, the fact that its Mother’s Day today and my day begun terribly (with my mum anyway) because I was rather rude. okay I was very rude

Then I kind of blew up because someone has a attitude problem. = =” What the is wrong with calling just awhile “late”? You can’t just expect me to make phonecalls when you want to receive them, but when they’re inconveniant for me right?! Then again, she’s had the attitude problem for eons now, which doesnt actually improve the situation, but it does tell me that I’m overreacting.

So how do you define a ‘good’ spar? I have no idea. All I know is that after that, I went for tuition and totally spaced out cuz I was so tired. Blah.

There was the wonderful friday with yiying. haha. Although I had to share her with her brother, then Samuel, then the computer. haha. But we had a GOOD TIME didnt we girl? (: it’s good to be able to spend time “away” from everything, to be bothered only by the most ordinary and mundane of not being able to find a space in the ikea restaurant. Whoa. You should have seen us man! Two girls holding hands dragging a little boy playing gameboy round and round and round. haha.

When we finally found a place, a woman appeared out of nowhere and claimed that she had been there earlier than us. fgdgdfwfevher. haha, I controlled my mouth for approx 3mins before I said something bad. haha. ask yiying. she was like – – haha.

then it was pool with samuel. Well, second time. It was a very no rules game, and we could hit any ball. Not like the game I played with joan haha, so confusing. I’m a noob. At first, I didnt even know how to channel my strength to get the ball to move. Then Samuel helped, so I could hit the thing, while poor poor yiying…. =X

🙂

The one thing great about having a bestfriend who has a printer is that she can help you print your debate speech 🙂 hah. I didnt bring my proper speech to the spar and ended up screwing it up pretty badly. Hmm. but aside from the stumbling and fake stats I had to make do with cuz I could not remember the name of that organisation, it was not that jerky and awkard I guess. I did panic though. haha.

The bbq was not as good as last year’s. For one, we didnt bring cards. 🙂

I’m here without you baby
But you’re still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
But you’re still with me in my dreams

hmm.

There’s the math test tomorrow, then there’s the competition.

But then there’s prayer and devotion.

So I guess life’s pretty balanced.

Then there’s also you.

-Identifying my purpose-

I am FINALLY done with my case and rebuttal sheet. Now I hereby wash my hands off debate till tomorrow morning. haha. Worked on it the whole morning.

so, I have to do my LIT thing now, and edit Nat’s article, do math and my tuition homework cuz I have no time to do it tomorrow morning. THEN, I can go to yiying’s house. (:

then it will begin to feel like today’s a holiday.

our moment was what I needed the most (:


Jesus I will live for You,in everything I do.